Narnia: Prince Caspian

Eddie talked me out of seeing Indie last night. I've never seen Indiana Jones on the big screen and the advertisements for the Crystal Skull look so poorly done (hello blue screen, how are you) that I really couldn't wait for some hot shots of Shia Lebouf and to make fun of the movie.

But Eddie wanted to see Narnia: Prince Caspian. And I couldn't REALLY Argue with that. I'm a HUGE fan of CS Lewis and there is something about Aslan on screen. Everytime I even think they're going to show him I end up crying.

Anyway, I wasn't disappointed with the movie. It is much harsher to see children fighting in the war scenes then to just read the book, of course, but that makes it more dramatic (and, well, hot).

But, honestly, it's not fair for them to keep putting so many hot boys in movies. I mean, what do they expect lecherous old women like myself to do?! Of course I'm going to like them... that is kind of the point.

William Mosely does a wonderful job as Peter (and I'm crushed we won't be seeing him again).

ummm, hello Ben Barnes as Prince Caspian. I think he did a great job with the accent, although I would find him more appealing with his usual Brit one (and he's going to be DORIAN GRAY in the NEW MOVIE!!!!). I kept getting distracted by his beautiful black eyes... and now that I know he'll play one of my all time loves (Dorian) I love him even more.

And then there is Skandar Keynes as Edmund. Wow... He really reminds me of a young Charlie Sheen, just more luscious. And it shouldn't be a surprise his mother is Lebanese and he's part Persian and Turkish.. I mean look at that hair! AND to just make things even more fun (well, aside from the fact he's not too far off from 18) he's also the great great great grandson of Charles Darwin.

It was very weird to see Peter Dinklage (my all time favorite hottie little person) with so much makeup on; but his eyes are so expressive I just wanted to kiss him anyway. DLF indeed!

And warwick davis comes out as the bad guy... interesting. Hard for me to follow, but only because his voice is so ingrained in me as good :) You know what with being Willow and professor flitwick !

The only thing I couldn't abide in this movie, and had to make retching noises through, was the whole flirtatious thing going on with Susan *Shudders* and Caspian. What the hell is that about!? She's not coming back. She later convinces herself it was all a game and Narnia and Alsan don't exist! She doesn't deserve such treatment.

So if you like war scenes, or lions or hot young men than you should go see this!

there is a storm tonight. And to be honest... I don't care if Stephenie Meyers does say that's when vampires can play baseball, I still shudder every time I hear thunder. In fact, I am currently distracting myself with typing and watching HP:PoA on TV (Even tho I'll probably put in the DVD to fall asleep to in a bit). But I'm scared if I turn anything off, or stop moving I'll just curl up into a little ball and cry.

god I hate thunder.

oh, don't ask me why I've finally stepped into the world of fan fiction. I've only written one. Mulder and Scully. And I've read a ton of bad and some fairly good Potter fan fic. I haven't even read any Twilight fanfic. Maybe because it's not over yet and I couldn't bear someone putting hands on them without knowing for sure.... it's hard enough with HP, but the pain from not having fresh moments with favourites characters *shudders* that is simply too much.

but tonight, as I ALMOST opened Twilight fanfic, I wondered why I didn't simply write some of my feelings down. I mean, yes, I SHOULD be working on my own characters. Those poor creatures who are occasionally let loose on paper.. some of their lives thus far condemned to live in dark drawers while my mind struggles to figure out their needs, and if they are different from my own and if my needs change do theirs?

but I can't stop thinking of bella and of dangerous edward. I feel as though Bella is my life in high school....minus about 80 pounds and plus one sparkly vampire (... okay seven sparkly vampires) which is all I ever wanted at that age. or all I ever wanted. ever. Period.

so I did it. it's nothing much. 533 little words. not even enough for a chapter (tho some people seem to be posting chapters with as many words, but more chapters). But perhaps I'll add more when I can't stop thinking about them. Or maybe I'll get constructive criticism that will motivate me to write my own characters rather than hiding from them.. or maybe some will just tell me I suck and I'll give up entirely and release my own characters from life in limbo by killing them.

I sometimes have felt Aurora decided to come to me in an effort to teach me things my soul needs to survive and to move on. This feeling is probably one that will get stronger as we age together.

I have suddenly realized, however, that she has also come to help fix me. I don't mean to sound like my heart was missing a piece that she filled when she was born.

I don't believe she did that. I think that piece is missing and will always be missing because that makes me who I am. She attached herself, however, to all things in me which are good and is helping to make those parts grow. And those pieces that are bad? well, she's there, too. She's testing them and sometimes she wins and sometimes they win. And when she wins they get a littler smaller.

She is also here, without a doubt, to help me remember. As someone who wants to write about her experiences within the world others see and her own world I sometimes get them confused. I can't always remember things from childhood. The intrinsic things that continue to make me smile or curl up in a ball and cry. Watching her learn I begin to remember my self. What I felt in a similar moment, or what I missed out on that makes me sad and maybe now I know why.

I am slowly learning a bit about my parents, and perhaps my grandparents. I can see them in myself; sometimes as literally as seeing their faces stare back at me in the mirror. Those are moments when decisions must be made about those good and bad pieces in me. Are they me? Are they my parents? what pieces do I want to keep and what do I want to let go of before they consume me, Aurora, and Eddie.

I see her, occassionally, in spaces of time which I feel separate from the world and she is everythingI already know. She is some strange character I created in my mind long ago and my body manifested, so I could watch and learn. And because I created her in this manner I also feel, as I watch her, I know her at 13 and at 23 and perhaps even 80. And I am scared because I do not even know myself. Do all mothers feel this way? Do fathers?

A Trip to Amsterdam with a long stop in China

T: what should we do tonight?
E: whatever you want...
T: let's go to Tijuana
E: anything but that
T: Amsterdam?
E: sure, I've already got tickets for the morning. We'll fly over, get high, and fly back.

T: long trip for just that
E: I'll go the opposite way
T: I think that's even longer
E: No, it's somewhere in the middle
T: no, i don't think it is.
E: well, what is in the middle
T: how the hell do i....
E: I think it's China
T: that makes sense, cuz wasn't there a saying about "digging a hole to China"?

E: I think they say that no matter where they are... you could live in China and they'd probably say "you'd dig a hole to China"
T: that's true. just depends on which direction you're digging.. like you could dig a trench and still end up in china.
E: ................................

10 Years Since the Downfall of Lord Voldemort
As revealed in ITV's JK Rowling Documentary which aired back in December, May 2nd, 1998 was the day Harry finally defeated Lord Voldemort within Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry.

A couple of visitors have asked us to post this wonderful anniversary. And why not? The Battle of Hogwarts within Deathly Hallows was one of the coolest scenes ever created by Jo. It held what we've been waiting to witness since closing Sorcerer's Stone. And who can forget Molly Weasley's infamous line to Bellatrix Lestrange: "NOT MY DAUGHTER, YOU BITCH!"?

So here's to Harry and his triumphant win against He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named. Leave your thanks to Harry and Jo in the comments, and ask yourself: Do Wizards have a name for this anniversary?

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Thanks to www.mugglenet.com for this wonderful reminder!

and as for names... how about the "HP can't be AKed Day" (oh, wouldn't Harry hate that!); "voldy's moldy day"; .. but will probably be something like "Hogwart's battle"; "DA's V-D"; got any more?