29.4.11

The Theme

My Sketchbook Project theme has been picked.  And, oddly, it is not at all what I thought it would be.  I bet it isn't what you thought it would be either.

In 10 Minutes

Don't you worry.  I'm sure there is still plenty of melodramatic, love forlorn, fantastical obsessions, and all other manner of crzylady quirks to be got into 10 minutes.

unfortunately, I can't get the bloody checkout at sketchbook to take my payment... so I will not be getting it as soon as I would like, but I'm going to try again next week.

I am awaiting all sorts of goodies in the mail: the first two Darren Shan "Cirque du Freak" books, the moleskin of enlightenment from the younger sister, a surprise prize from the older sister, my copy of the newly released "The President's Vampire" by the altogether great author, Chris Farnsworth (who you might remember from this lovely weekend), AND the FREE President's Vampire Tee Chris is sending out to those of us who bought his book yesterday (WOOT). 

Aren't I super lucky?!

And to think, I made this post..... in 10 minutes.

22.4.11

Creativity is Calling!

The lovely Kylie at Chasing Purple Dreams introduced me to the Sketchbook Project last year.  It is intensely amazing.  A little sketchbook for you to fill and then it goes traveling about the world...for people to see!

I wanted to do it, but chickened out.  This year, I think it is just what I need to helpful my self-education.

they have amazing themes.  I'm starting to narrow them down.

  1. I remember you
  2. the last of the people I know
  3. In fifty years
  4. Ask me how I can help
  5. Sandwich
  6. The first ever...
  7. Hope
  8. In 10 minutes
  9. Along the line
  10. Grey side of life
  11. Fill me with stories
  12. Things found under seats
  13. Untitled
  14. The companion books
  15. Transatlantic
  16. Travel with me
  17. Forever in a nutshell
  18. Disasters
  19. This is a sketchbook
  20. The worst story ever told
  21. Fears and tears
  22. It's summer where you are
  23. It's winter where you are
  24. Nothing new
  25. Time traveler
  26. Opposite Day
  27. Uncharted waters
  28. Life underground
  29. Monochromatic
  30. Long trips & short phone calls
  31. Encyclopedia of
  32. Prehistoric
  33. Sandwich (no idea why there are two)
  34. Writing on the wall
  35. A path through the trees
  36. Stitches & folds
  37. Heroes & villains
  38. Treehouse
  39. Forks & spoons
  40. Waterslides I never rode
The ones crossed out are not because I don't think they could amazing.. I can't wait to see some forks & spoons (especially those filled with vampyres and werewolves), but they don't really call to me.

I still have a lot of dreaming to do before I decide.  Expect the answer sometime next week.  I hope you'll consider joining the project as well.

20.4.11

In the Interim

Transitions (and, boy oh boy, I am really starting to see that this process will never end) takes it toll.  There are days filled with creativity - and not in the ways one would think - but more so, right now, I feel like I need a little hibernation.  I am incredibly tired, a lot. I feel like a Caterpillar wrapping myself quietly and safely in my cocoon while I process all the things I'm learning about enjoying or struggling with about myself.

So in the interim of energetic bursts the following things are in the air:
  • writing.  not blogging, but really writing on scraps of paper, in journals, on letters.
  • preparing to write.  do you get bursts of inspiration when you're doing something else?  And there are moments to hastily grab pen and paper and throw all the thoughts down, incomplete, in another language, with obscenity, with scribbles and punctuation errors.  And then there are the moments the ideas are coming at a languid learning pace, just tickling you with the idea of an Epiphany but it is too private and unfinished and almost unbelievable to put to the world in something so concrete as letters conjoined.
  • letting go of self-created moments of emotion.  I know, and have probably always known, I thrive on emotion.  Lots of them; so i make them up when i find them lacking.  I wonder if this "Just being" moment in my life is also connected to my tiredness.  It is an interesting theory, which is why I haven't felt too much need to kick myself back into high gear (although there are twitches when I miss it).
  • understanding my eccentricities.  I am torn, currently, between being perfectly content with my loves in life, because they make me happy, and being melancholy about my expectations from life because of those loves.  If I were less than what I am (less dramatic, less emotional, less costumey, less brash, less emphatic, less demanding, less verbose, less loud) would I be able to settle for quiet and nice anything?  Instead I want the extraordinary. Seems awfully presumptuous.  It also seems unattainable. 
  • back to exercising.  took a terrible plunge into too busy for activity.  my lungs (and those cigarettes) aren't happy with me right now.
  • remembering that some things are just true.  like my impatience for cooking.  i don't enjoy it - at least not unless someone else is cooking and I can help.  on my own it is a disaster.  not always in the fire department sense, but usually in the non-edible/presentable sense. 
  • reading.  lots of reading. new things even!  Gabrielle Hamilton (wonderful writer, although she does end a lot of sentences with prepositions but I think it was purposefully to bug me), Neil Strauss (read The Game), just ordered the first two Darren Shan Cirque du Freak books (because the Vampire's Assistant with the ever wonderful John C. Reilly was great).
I have no idea where I am going right now, and I'm sorta okay with that.

6.4.11

Returned

You have just witnessed what happens when the Universe uses forgetfulness and impatience to help with the transformation process. Yes, a bit of an absence – and in the middle of the Portland story. Well, this is life.


We continued from an amazing (and by amazing I mean jaw dropping, eye rolling, exclamation making) breakfast to head to wine country. We had to stop at the popular White Rose, where we reenacted my dragon pose.

But then I had to go to the bathroom. And it was quite a process. This lovely little box of a building. It is a bit like a vault from the door perspective and after struggling with the giant floor lock I turned to find lots of pretty sinks and decor. I almost set my purse in the bath – fortunately I didn’t because a few moments later Frances told me how interesting she thought the urinal was. WHAAAA?


And it got a bit cold and drizzly on that hill, so we had to dance about. And then I turned to see a hill with giant vats. WINE! I couldn’t resist. I’m sorry.





White Rose was packed so we did not get in enjoy private time with the attractive and heavily accented server (who treated us to an extra little taste last time). I was also disappointed to find the cute Asian group milling about was actually just a bunch of Americans.

Down the hill a bit to Du Ponte. With a delicious Melon (pronounced Ma-loan) wine. And the server put up with our craziness with such grace. Especially when one of exclaimed how much we didn’t like “it” – and he thought perhaps we meant the wine. We did not. Bottles were actually purchased. It was lovely. And then we played outside a bit because the sun was breaking through. And because the wind wouldn’t cooperate with our efforts to hang the camera from a hook for a group picture a nice gentleman was picked out from the tasting room to capture this wonderful moment.


And then to SHOPPING. Cupcake Couture, in McMinnville.. and really the big reason I wanted to go back became a whirlwind of attractive women putting on a fashion show. Unfortunately, Samantha, the adorable and smart owner, wasn’t around, but we left our love. And I know we’ll be back.

Now for more food from the great McMenamin’s in the Oregon Hotel (yes the one with the painting Frances hates, Mulder in the bath, but is one of my favourites I’ve ever seen in my entire life). And beer was to be had and trying to track down appropriate men (preferably hot and unsuspecting) for eye entertainment. Only a couple and they were smoking on the balcony and it was too cold and windy for me to brave it.



Back to the car on to our way for girlie mani/pedis with some of Frances friends. I’m the one with the Hunter Orange polish (thank you, Katie, for the amazing color pick, I can’t wait to get some for my personal use).


And then to a martini bar and more food like yummy Parmesan fries. Mmmmm.

And another bar and a few more drinks and then to the hotel and more food and drinks. Now, I could have done without the extra food, but my oh my the most deliciously too young bus boy was working. You know, the dashing kind that make you think of fox hunting and Burberry advertisements. With the most glorious eyebrows I have ever seen. He didn’t dare make eye contact with our group of voracious (and lecherous, thanks to me) women, but it didn’t stop him from hanging out on our side of the bar and chuckle at our conversation. I named him “Eyebrows”, which is now also the name of my new pet.

so MWAH! I'll fill you in on Spring Break with Aurora soon!